It all starts here..

Yo'all! This is my very first blog so I might as well introduce myself. My name is Jim.. and I am an aspirant game designer (don't you mean frustrated..) I am in a journey to become a game developer.. (What the hell are you thinking?!) I've decided over this a long long time ago but unfortunately, it hasn't come to me up until now. Well this time, I'm making things right.. Yes, that's right.. you heard me.. this time, this dream will become a reality.. no longer will I muse myself of dreaming to be one.. and it will all begin with this.. a journal!! (O c'mon.. you barely even know how to draw.. you draw like a 3 year old kid!! You do not even have sufficient knowledge in math!! Oh and I bet that you don't even know in the first place where to begin and what to do!! Oh, and a journal?? As if blabbering would help!) *What a freak!!* Don't bother listening to him. Well, to begin with, I KNOW HOW TO DRAW!! Yeah that's right. I can edit photos and make something out of them!! (That's not drawing.. that's editing you moron!!) *Shut up!* Well, I also know math.. well, not that I *know* math per se but.. um.. (Yah Yah!! I know what you are trying to say.. sure, you know how to add or subtract!! hell everybody knows that!! What Im talking about are the real things such as Dynamics, Collision Detection.. Matrices.. now that is math!! addition?! hah! Don't make me laugh.. you're not even close!!).. uh yeah.. but Im trying you know.. uhh.. well, lets get back.. I know programming.. definitely.. I've been using VB and SQL for almost 3 years now.. I've actually made a super trump game using those tools!! hah!! (So you think you're good huh.. well the fact of the matter is.. you are not.. those thins that you mentioned.. they're just childs play.. you hear me!! C++ is the real thing!! DarkBasic is another.. BlitzBasic is another.. Hell you cannot even move a Pixel-shaded cube using vb without causing it to flicker!! Oh, and the Super Trump thing that you did.. its a junk..) ..uhrm.. well.. uh.. yes.. .. he's right.. Im no more than a dreamer right now. But I know that it is never too late for me to make this happen as long as I believe that I can do this.. this is my life after all and if ever my story will end, then I want it to be a good one..

So what do I need a journal for? Well, with this, I will be posting my progress so that I can reflect on the things that had happened during the past. I will also be posting here my thoughts, experiments, achievments, dissapointments, research insights.. and well, everything that I can think of. This will help me organize my thoughts and probably, draw some conclusions out of it. I need to develop a strong sense of the real world and probably set the line between fiction and reality. Color me naive but right now, I don't really now whether all of me is real.. whether what I am doing right now is the true thing.. whether what I perceive right now is what it really is. I remember Hideo (MSG2) saying something about reality being what we perceive.. what we believe is true.. what we believe is real.. well, I'm about to find out.

For those who will be patient enough to read my posts, please help me with my journey. if you think that Im doing the wrong thing.. if my grammar isn't that well composed.. it doesn't matter. All your comments will be highly appreciated by me. Drop me a letter on what you think I should do to better myself.. just post it here and I'll take my dear time to read all of it.. Oh, and if ever you are been reading this, please drop me a message and say "Hey! i've read your post". I just like to know whether someone has been showing interest with my posts.

I know that this will be a very long journey. I will experience frustration. I will be depressed. I will be very busy enough with my work that I will not have enough time to carry on with this. I will even be tempted to drop the whole thing out... but regardless of the trials that are ahead of me, I will give my best shot in this thing and damn I will be one hell of a game designer.. I will write my story the way I wanted it to be.. And it will all be wonderful.

lord british ix

"all hail lord british, the king of the fools.."
(Compassion :: Honesty :: Honor :: Humility :: Justice :: Sacrifice :: Spirituality :: Valor)

Courage is the will to struggle, for beliefs and for others , and is formed of the Virtues of Honor, Sacrifice, Spirituality, and Valor.

Love is the empathic bond that unites the self to all others, and is formed of the Virtues of Compassion, Justice, Sacrifice, and Spirituality.

Truth is the objective reality, that which is not false, and is formed of the Virtues of Honesty, Honor, Justice, and Spirtuality.